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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Cross Your Fingers, Turn Around Three Times, and Spit Over Your Left Shoulder

I'm truly almost afraid to say it aloud, but I really think I'm feeling better. Like, a LOT better. Like, take-on-the-world-and-start-5o-bazillion-projects-at-one-time better.

(Not that I would EVER do anything like that....)

I'm a convert. I started with the light box 2 weeks ago on Thursday, and by Monday or so, I realized that while I wasn't feeling better, I certainly wasn't feeling any worse. The seemingly inexorable slide downward had been stalled.

By the following weekend, after a week-plus with the light, I was feeling distinctly better. I got up on Saturday and started doing errands right away. (Ten-year-old boy + glasses = omfg with the adjustments at Lenscrafters, already!) I may have overdone it a bit, as I crashed pretty hard that afternoon, but I was back at it again on Sunday, making bread and chocolate truffles, cleaning house, and getting started on planning our holiday juggernaut of entertaining.

And today I feel good. I really feel good. I washed my hair this morning and removed a month's worth of stubble, and then made lists of holiday desserts to bake over breakfast. I've been productive at work, finally dispatching some long-lingering projects, and ran errands at lunch besides. I did a little gift shopping. And for the first time in what feels like months, I'm not sitting at my desk wishing with all my might I could just lay my head gently down and close my eyes until it all goes away.

I feel like I have my self back. Maybe if we keep it our secret it will last a while?...

9 comments:

MemeGRL said...

Um, I think I need a light box!
Yay you! Thanks for the update.

Magpie said...

Yeah, I might need one too.

ccr in MA said...

Oh, me too! How cool that it seems to be helping! What kind did you get?

Domestic Goddess said...

Wow! Big difference.

Did you say A MONTH'S WORTH? And I thought I was the only one...

Anonymous said...

This is very good news. May you continue to feel like yourself and have a happy Thanksgiving, as well.

Marcia

AnnL said...

Where did you get this SAD light? I think I need one. I've spent the last 3 days on the couch. Literally. Hovering dangerously near the edge of that Black Hole that I haven't fallen into for decades. Drugs haven't helped, maybe the light will.

Tina said...

I'm really glad to hear it's going so well for you, Ruth!

Diana said...

What's a light box?!

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