Thursday, November 6, 2014

To Zen, Or Not To Zen

Yesterday I was trying to make an appointment with my new acupuncturist for after work, and he asked me what was the earliest I could make it without hurrying.  And I realized, I am never not hurrying.  Hurry is my default mode.  I'm either hurrying or I'm asleep (or trying to get to sleep).

My first reaction to this realization was, holy crap, I'm always hurrying, I really ought to do something about that.  Find more zen in my life.  But then I thought, hold it, do I really have to be more zen?  Hurrying seems to work for me.  Maybe the healthier thing to do would be to embrace that truth and not feel bad that I'm not more zen?  When did zen become the default goal we should all strive for?

I do wonder.


cran said...

Good to see a new post. Hope all is well with that "new" kidney!

RuthWells said...

Cran, how nice to see you! I hope your health is good, as well. My new kidney is going strong. :)

cran said...

Fantastic! My kidney is continuing to work fairly well. It's been two years and I still deal with fatigue and some side effects from meds but overall am well. Just wanted to say hey and let you know I still check the blog.

RuthWells said...

You and I are on similar tracks, Cran. My 3-year kidneyversary will be in February, and I do continue to have side effects from the meds and less energy than I'd often like. I made a great discovery last week, though -- I started with a new acupuncturist and with just a few needles, he completely knocked out the cyst pain I had been having all day. Worth a try if you're having pain.

I wish I were writing here more, but it's gotten harder. Michael and I separated earlier this year, and much of what's going on in my life is unbloggable. :) I hope to find a way back, though.

Take good care of yourself!

The Informal Matriarch said...

Maybe embracing your hurrying is the path to being zen. Ooooo I feel wise.